dreamsofbaby

05:50 pm: Feeling low
I've been feeling pretty down today. Tonight my husband is going to a concert with friends. He asked me if I wanted to go four months ago and I told him no because I didn't want to be in the smoky environment since I would probably be pg by December. Here it is, the day of the concert, and I'm not pg. I don't even feel like I'm anywhere close to getting there. It is depressing.

I honestly thought I would be pg by now. I thought I would be announcing it to my family at Christmas. When I went off bc in January, I never thought a year would go by without getting pg. And here it has been nearly a year.

I don't know what brought me to this point where I want a baby so badly that I am upset about my struggles at getting pg. I guess since my dh and I have been together for nearly 8 years now and I've been ready to have a baby for about the last three, it makes it seem like it's been longer that we've been trying. It just hurts when you've come to a point where you are ready in every way and it took so long to get to that point and then you think your efforts will pay off right away and they don't... Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow.